“If i don’t care than i’m not going to do anything”
-words of wisdom from Erin Bean
So i know some times i can be a little empty headed…
A while ago me and my sister were in Old Navy and a pair of sunglasses fell into my bag and about a half and hour later i noticed them…. I think i almost died… Me stealing a pair of sunglasses i was so scared…so I crept back inside the store and dropped them off.. No one noticed.
Then today me and my sister were in a store called American Eagle, and i was trying on some shirts and on the way home right, i felt something poking me in the back..and yes it was the tag of a shirt that i had tried on. Somehow i managed to forget i had it on and put my other shirt back on over it… I think I almost cried.
I had just won my dad a trip back to Carmel… (for you out of towners about 20 minutes away from my house)
and he had to try and explain what had happened…
I don’t ever want anything to happen like that again…not a happy experience…..
(my bean family did get a good laugh though)
I was babysitting and i was reading a book. the raggedy ann series. and one of the lines stated this “Now you must promise to reform and not be pirates and kidnappers anymore and then I’ll give you each a lollipop.”
Wow… doesn’t it seem like that how it usually is.. Hey if you become a christian than you’ll go to heaven, have eternal happiness. Now my class has had a discussion about something similar, but what i said was that, should we really be living our lives thinking if i only get through or if i stay a christian than one day i will get pure happiness… But isn’t heaven meant to serve and worship God. To see the Kingdom come…. I think i’ve got this right, I mean i’m not saying that i have the truth but doesn’t it seem that we always need some kind of treat or reward…some kind of bait!
Or is that the point is God luring us to only do this so that we achieve heaven. Uukk that doesn’t sound or seem right….This is kind of a jumble of words.. but ijust thought that was pretty intresting from Raggedy Ann.
Just got back from my first Lacrosse game. My friend Matt, and Aaron play and it was so much fun. This sport is so exciting, something is always happening…. Its really cool! I recomend a trip to watch sometime…
Not much else to say except School Almost Out…expect a visit soon….
This is exactly feel like doing right now…. For those of you who don’t know, i am a big v-ball fan and player… I could probably blog about it all day… It been passion to be active all my life! And volleyball is definetly active… Just thought i would post a pic, of me in my natural habitat….
My stomach has been flipping up and down for the past 4 days… I worry a lot about not appreciating the moment. Like i won’t be happy when i’m supposed to.. that i’m not going to enjoy things…I’ve always had that fear. And i want it to go away. I want to be able to enjoy the moment i’m in or the moments to come but i’m scared i won’t.. I don’t know if you’ll ever really understand what i mean..its so screwed up and i hate it….
Ecclesiastes 3:8 a time to love and a time to hate
a time for war and a time for peace.
++Lord give me a peace i have never felt before++
It seems just yesterday that Palmer passed. it is still so fresh in my mind. i’m thankful its not effecting me the way it did, although every once in awhile its hits me for real. my days have been pretty hard lately. everyday i’m faced with something new, like a new wall placed in front of me.. keeping me from what i am striving after.
This past weekend i played my v-ball tournament at our old church Eagle. It was pretty weird. I actually saw people that i hadn’t seen since we left. I said my short ‘hellos’ and that was all i could offer. I didn’t want to say anything to these people. What they did to my family. what they did the church was so wrong…
During our weekend in Cinci i got to meet Beth Keck, and Zion Keck. We went out to lunch with my mom and me. We talked about our experience at Eagle. And my mom spoke of things i had never heard before. The story i heard had been much simpler it sounded nicer. but his was HORRID, full of (for a lack of better words) WRONGNESS….
I could recount the story but i don’t think this is the right place to do it… If you would like to know just contact me… It was hard talking about it with them. It hurt. Then having to actually go there was even harder and stranger. When i went back i knew where everything was, the piano was sitting on the stage. The stage my father worshipped is heart on… But i wished never to have to encounter again. I had always talked about going back and visiting but now hearing what i have heard. Never Again…
But in the midst of my v-ball tourney my friends began to ask me “why was this weird what happened?” I replied with short simple answers nothing much… The girls i play with wouldn’t exactly be seen as spiritual followers. Yea theres the regular Sunday church… but i think you know what i mean…
I got the chance to kind of explain what my church is like my friend asked “what is a house church?” i said “well my family believes in a church of community that we need to be able to know each other, being in a church like this i didn’t know HALF the people going here, and thats not right” She didn’t exatly answer but shook her head accepting what i had said… One of my friends told me she went to a community church… Which i don’t know exactly what that means for that church. Except that she said it is also small. Later that day the same girl i had explained about my church said to me “the way your family lives the way you do things, i like it. She said it was pretty cool.'’ Nothing more was said… I just smiled. “Is this the start of something… who knows but that would be pretty awesome.
Life is hard. but i already knew that…..
More important things need to be done… accomplished.
ELPIDA
The glory of GOD-let it last forever!
Let GOD enjoy his creation!
He takes one look at earth and triggers an earthquake,
points a finger at the mountains, and volcanoes erupt.
