En Route

Its hurts so bad when someone you love so much… is making all the wrong decisions…you desperately want them to make the right ones. but it just doesn’t happen.

(no name dropping here)
Just Pray
LB

I’m so stoked me and my sis are going to the State Fair to see the All American Rejects tommorrow.
They are definetly one of my favorite bands.
Thanks sissy for getting the tickets.

So last night i had a babysitting job for kids i had never babysat before. ihad an idea about how old they were but i was wrong. When i get there i realize that i have two babies (one is 1 the other still under one), and i have a four year old. Now lets keep in mind that these kids have never ever had a babysitter. So the young one Hope does not stop screaming. I have to blow in her face to make her breathe. Her cousin Matthew of course is all boy. Climbing. touching. everything. So I was spooked. I couldn’t do this all by myself. So guess who i call. My mother. Yes, she is the ultimate savior. She left her dinner plans to come and help me with the kids. I felt horrible. She is the ultimate awesome. I love her so much. And at the end of the night it really wasn’t so bad. Matthew is just adorable, smiling all the time. (o yes theres that evil smile though too) And Hope just never had a babysitter so basically had never been away from her mother. And Lauren the four year old was Precious. She watched Snow White and just sat around.
I don’t know if you really wanted to hear that story but there it is. I wanted to give high respect to my mom, where everyone could see it. Thanks again mom.

Music is my Cure…

The White Stripes

We got to have dinner with the disney characters…

Hey its not just for the younglings… I get to have my fun too….

Do we believe and have faith in order to understand or do we understand in order that we may believe and have faith?

I’ve heard a lot of people lately struggle in my community because they do not understand. They don’t exactly know why this truth (of Jesus) is the real one. The one that they should believe in. Some don’t understand certain aspects (which doesn’t greatly apply to what i’m saying here).
So then not understanding leads them to be unable to answer questions from someone not following christ…
there faith then in what they believe weakens. they don’t exactly know why this is the truth they are seeking after.
Now what came to mind when all this was being presented was that. Do we really have to understand God, do we really have to know what he means, why things happen the way they do. because i know if that was the case then how could we call ourselves followers of christ.

and then what i say to that is because we have faith.

We have faith that all this is true. that this is the way: the truth: and the life.

So i go back to my opening question… Do we have to understand God, to fully understand his works so that we then may believe in him… or do we have faith and believe in order to understand God’s works and himself.

I think that this question applies to the people striving to understand… maybe not???

Why is life so hard… my summer is CRAZY….
i can’t do anything i truly want to do…
i have barely any time off.
i miss people that i really need to see to talk to to pray with…
i’ve screamed numerous times today…. arrgghh
WHY????

i’m crushed

Something mentioned and something i’ve kind of thought about for awhile is this….
So we believe in a church. a relationship with God that happens in a different way then what baptist churches or nazerene churches right? Now from that do we say. well we are going to help these people come do what we are doing because what they are doing is wrong and what we are doing is necessarily right…
i mean is this what we are coming from. or do we except that what we believe in. what we are doing is just a different form. not necessarily wrong or right just different. and thats that

this really isn’t a developed thought but i thought i would share with you my confusion.

No to much on my mind right now except the longing to see my friends…. o there is one thing

-My dog likes beer.- perferrably corona

Life is hard. but i already knew that…..
More important things need to be done…
ELPIDA

i posted this a couple of months ago and i still feel the same. I continue to tell myself that life is hard. but why do i keep saying that?