En Route

Well today is the start of my three day volleyball tryouts. I pretty nervous, but we’ve been together for the last couple weeks conditioning. So i know everyone and the coaches..
I’ll be posting results on wednesday.
Cross your fingers and pray i do my best.
Love all
LB

Yesterday i decided to color my hair again. I wanted it to be the same it had been months ago. A little red a little brown. And guess what i got. Basically a plum color. The box said “Cinnaberry.” I failed to read the berry part.
But although its not what i wanted, i’m beginning to like it. I wanted something different and thats what i got.
I’ll try to post some pictures later if i can.
LB

Lots of things are going on in my life right now. Almost to much to handle, but i dealing with it pretty well.
Summer school is really not fun, but on the other hand at least i’m not a couch potato all day!

Lots of thoughts are also going through my mind. I’m starting to see sides of people i never knew of. That i wish i didn’t know. I’m starting to realize how blessed i really am. Going to a school like Pike High School (Public) puts you into so many different situations. Akward ones, silly ones, hurtful ones and the list goes on. I’m learning alot!

I was watching Inside the Actor’s Studio today. The guest was Micheal J. Fox. One of his comments to his book that he had written was this. ” Theres a story about God that says he brought a group of people together and made a large circle. God then asked each person to put one of his or her problems into the middle of the circle. He then told everyone to choose a problem that they would rather have. It just happened that most people just took there problem back, it wasn’t as worse as everyone elses.”
That struck me as so true. But no one really ever realizes that. I tend to wallow and grieve over problems in my life that most of the kids at Pike would die to have than to have the ones they have now.
But i still hurt sometimes and it doesn’t go away easily.

I just want to ask that prayers for Amy Palmer continue… shes such a precious, strong, beautiful, and compassionate woman. Please continue to pray for Micah. Bless his soul…

LB

This is just a song i really really like… “Fall Away” written by “The Fray”

You swear you recall nothing at all
That could make you come back down
You made up your mind to leave it all behind
Now you’re forced to fight it out

You fall away
It’s following you

I hate not having time to sit down and really blog… my schedule is crazy. and i hate it. Well for the most part.
I wish i had more time..but thats not what i get. But there is something lately i have been think ing about.

It would be so much easier not to be a follower, or a believer.

Italy Won!! France did put up an awesome fight… until Zinedine Zidane had his show…
I had a lot of respect for that man, and being his last game ever, i just don’t understand that. And for those of you who don’t know what i’m talking about. I don’t remeber which Italian it was but Zidane and him got to smack talking each other and apparently the Italian said something that really bothered Zidane and he turned around and head butted him in the chest. Yes.. that is what he did. A 37 year old man, who was also the captain, had to walk off the pitch on his very last match wearing a french jersey with a red card.
Well.. even though it did go to Penalty kicks, it was a pretty sweeett match… GO ITALIA!!!

Ok enough of World Cup (until tomorrow). Time for some real thought.
Today I was reading the newspaper and totally overwhelmed by all the craziness, and just terrible sad stories.
One that crushed me was the story of a little boy 5 years old boy who died by a 16 year old guy who caused and accident with the young boy on his scooter. Horrible fate for that little boy. And i can’t even imagine what that 16 year boy is thinking. They said it wasn’t due to drunk driving or anything like that.
It kills me to hear stories like this.
And then i read this. Indianapolis is top ranked for the most smoking. And now that our restraunts and theme parks are banning smoking (even though they can just hop a couple feet away to the smoking areas).. they made a product that is i guess kind of like gum. While you chew it the chemicals are realeased into your mouth. Some people say it lowers the risk of cancer and other diseases while others say it replaces and old bad habit with another. Its sickening to me. How people long to kill other people, JUST TO MAKE PROFIT..!!… It also sickens me when i found out people who are close to me smoke and won’t admit they are killing themselves. I don’t know how i can have any respect for these people…
And next I absolutely need to move out of this town. I’m ready to clear my head of this place. Theres gotta be somewhere better in this world. Even though i know anywhere i go there are going to be people i don’t like or people that don’t like me, i’m still ready to try something new. maybe a little more cultured.
SO maybe i’ll consider studying abroad. Although that will probably kill my v-ball career we will see what happens. I hate predicting the future. You have know idea whats coming.

I miss people. I want to see my really good friends again. Or even to be with my friends from old. To share times with them again. I get sick to my stomach thinking about the people i long to see again.
I owe it to my family though.. they help me and stick by my side through it all. They continue to love me and be someone in this town i love to see. I don’t know if this is true of a lot of kids but i would definetly rather go to dinner with my family then with the friends i have… They make me so happy and make me usually forget about all the things i’m worried about. Thanks for all the love and support you have given me family… My love to you always..

And very lastly… i miss palmer. I miss being able to see his updates on how he is doing on his blog. I miss hearing my dad’s voice and his eyes light up when he finds out hes seeing plamer again. I want him abck on this earth. I want Amy to be happy again. To feel Mark again. And i dearly want the little Micah to get to know
his dad.. All this is so overwhelming.
But are you ready for that silverlining besides my wonderful family. Tonight i am babysitting this little tiny 6 month old baby (i think thats how old he is). Little John Micheal Lyndon. I look into this little guys eye and see so much life. This little baby has no idea about all the evil going on in the world or all the hatred being passed around. I mean yea he has a few of his own problems.. but still.
I think it is so truly amazing how God himself gave us the ability through him to produce life. To give someone a life, a journey with God (hopefully the baby can be blessed to have that relationship) It made me put a cheek to cheek smile on!! Amazing!! Truly Amazing!!
Well i hope you enjoyed this writing. I challenge you to find some life in your day today or tomorrow. Find it and cherish it!!!

Ok, so Portugal plays today for third place!
But now its time to cheer on for Italy. I have to grant to France that they have some crazy natural talent. Zidane…Henry…Ribery..
but italy is not bad either… i also love the energy they play with that France seems to be lacking.
GO ITALY!!

Portugal is my almost favorite. I love them. Christiana Ronaldo is so good and Figo too.
I almost cried when i watched the game. That stupid win on a penalty goal. ARE YOU JOKING???
It was a good game tough..
i hope you got to watch it!

The Team

Christiana Ronaldo Baby!!

Ricardo the goalie

I just got over some nasty flu. i don’t even know what it was, but it sucked. And now i start summer school on wednesday. I have to wake up at the butt crack of dawn. Yea, the bus comes at 6:46.am Its crazy.

LB