Painting… and all that good stuff.
Painting my room.. before and after pics coming up soon….
March 30, 2007
March 28, 2007
Our Brother…
Remeber him…. Elpida…
March 29th ,2006 at 1:05pm
This what Palmer read at Jennifer’s Memorial Service and i thought it would be appropriate to read at his….. well if i tried to read it i probably wouldn’t be able to get it all out without being in flowing tears..
So just making sure if i didn’t read it there u would be able to still read it.. he said ‘’he wanted people to be moved by the truth contained in it’ — if u want to see a priceless pic of Micah and Palmer go here
little bean(please read amy palmer this makes me hurt so much…keep praying for her)
Prudentius: Hymn For Burial Of The Dead
“We are incompatible elements joined,
mortal and immmortal. They fuse
in the heat of the Lords forge. Mankind
is fashioned thus. For a time it stays
but the weld, which cannot hold, gives way,
for spirit yearns to rise to the sky
while flesh, which is earth, is drawn to obey
gravity’s stern decree. We die,
and our contrary portions come undone,
but God is good and even yet
will not abandon anyone
who is His servant. Bodies rot
in congeniual mire, and in the grave
the spirit is trapped that, lighter, fights
to rise, assert itself, and live.
For a time, the universe hesitates
but flesh feels a sudden warming. Then
those cold bones twitch and corpses sigh,
reanimated, and rise again,
borne by the heavenly breezes, to fly.
This life is all decline and loss,
fading beauty, waning strength,
and wasting diseases, leaving us
piteous ruins, and yet at length
heaven shall make us whole, repair
our derelict frames, restore, improve,
and make us perfect everywhere.
Why do we mourn, then, those we love
with foolish lamentations? No,
no tears! What we bury here in the earth
is only the seed from which will grow
a fresh green plant. In this rebirth
we cannot doubt, for we believe
in heaven. We gaze down into a hole
in the gentle earth that we see receive
our dead, who issued, body and soul,
from the mouth of God. In faith and trust
we commit to Him who does not forget
His creatures these remains, that dust
the winds may scatter but God shall yet
revive and reassemble. We
will live again and breath His breathe…”
March 27, 2007
A Long Time Coming….
Happy Birthday to my lovely sister. You have been my everything. When you leave there will be a half of me gone. I can’t beleive your 18 and i hope you do all you are capable of. I know i sound like a mother but you truly are my everything. I love you no matter what happens. and will support you all the way. wherever and whenever. Enjoy life. Make love… not war… and be at peace…!!!
March 18, 2007
All good things must come to an end???
This weekend has been everything and more. On saturday i got the chance to sit in on some really interesting conversations and stories. Bob told “his story” or what hes been up to and i think i could listen to him talk for hours and hours. (and maybe a few more) I greatly enjoyed my birthday thanks to all the amazing people i spent it with. I was sung to numerous times throughout the day and it was beautiful..i wish i could talk about this out loud and then post it on here because i can never seem to get the good stuff out on paper(or online papel).
Goodbyes suck.. basically.. they just do. nothing more to it. I feel like though i have more to bring back home with me. I’ve expierienced alot and learned a whole heck of alot. and im hoping i can bring it back to indy .. theres more to be said but not enough time or space to say it.. lb
(o ya… do all good things really come to an end???) (what is “an end?”) (how can they??)
Thinspace
That was it… im not sure what it is but thats it. We were sitting around the fire… allan sitting on my side. I told him “this is a surreal moment, Todd Hunter with Marshall and Rains on one side, Keck, Mike some other amazing guys and beth and amy,” Thats surreal.. i was listening on one side to mike and keck, and i was blown away. I here these awesome things, i just can’t explain. It was awesome to listen in on another conversation all of equal amazement. I can feel it. This what God loves. I feel like a sense of joy a sense of peace. PEACE… in a world where that doesn’t seem possible.
I’m more than blessed to be next to these men and women of God.. truly blessed. I go to a school and look at people today that just don’t quite get it yet. I feel like they are more than capable of it. I’m not sure why i keep referring to “it” but it obviously means something.” Not sure what yet.” I had to come in the house and write this down as soon as could. don’t want to forget to.
Im finishing this post on Sunday morning.. and im gonna need some time to think about this weekend. it was definetly all that i thought and more….
Make love not War!
March 11, 2007
i just can’t wait….
Right now all i can think about is this awesome weekend we are about to have. All these people its going to be an awesome reunion with us all.
I dread the whole school thing though. I just don’t know what to do with myself at school. I just feel different. Not like i’m a different person but theres noone there that i can really relate to. I feel like i put this mask on most of the time, just because people like it. Thats why its such a blessing to be able to meet with Elpida again because i feel connections there. its gonna be really hard for me to get through this week but we’ll see how it goes.
Like i posted before.
“Life is hard, but i already knew that. But theres more to be done. Elpida…”
The bigbean and the littlebean….!!
March 9, 2007
Time
I’ve been in this really funky mood for the past couple days. I’m not exactly sure what it is. I have no clue.
I’ve been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. I’m so excited about next weekend. But i’m not sure what its gonna be like so maybe that makes me uneasy. Sometimes i get scared that these great memories these times i have with these amazing people are gonna go to fast and pass me by. This coming weekend is going to be an awesome weekend. I’m gonna see some people that i haven’t seen since palmer’s wake. I just wanna make sure those moments i’m gonna have with them don’t slip away from me. I want to enjoy them, and cherish them…I think i just need to relax and know that God has this all worked out. He doesn’t want me to be worried or to anxious (i don’t even know the right word).And frankly im not sure why i am? I’ve been praying for God to clear my mind. Theres just some much going on. I don’t what time to go to fast. Even though i have no control.
Sad to say but we all know the time is coming up. and you all know what it is…we really need to pray for the palmer family. they need all they can get.
LB
March 3, 2007
Theres more to be done that can ever be done.
I was listening to Circle of Life from Lion King today.(please don’t ask.. i miss my young days of disney) And a verse came up that said “theres more to be done that can never be done” you know like theres so much to be done but of course it won’t all get done…
I hear that everywhere but it just hit me harder today.. I DON’T HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING…. i don’t have to be perfect all the time. yes, i should be striving to be perfect but that impossible to be totally perfect. sometimes i feel like i try to be this person and i try to be that person when i just need to BE… i think God knows this too.. we can’t be perfect. we can’t save the whole world in a minute.